To blog or not to blog

To blog or not to blog

Every morning (well almost every morning) I hear Keith Urban crooning,

“I wont have to speak my mind
And you won’t have to hear”

And I am almost tempted…not to speak my mind. Seriously, why would anybody want to hear whats on my mind…Except the Facebook status bar which keeps on asking “Whats on your mind?”

When I was in school the greatest joy in my life was writing. Its nothing like putting pen to paper and pouring my heart out. I wrote all sort of stupid speeches, non-sensical compositions and really idiotic poetry…While doing my engineering the part I sorely missed was the joy of writing of course did a lot of writing for the submissions and a lot of “creative writing” during the theory exams but…well..thats not the same thing. I haven’t really written for a very long time. You cant really call posts on FB, a couple of book reviews or a few letters to someone writing can you? So seriously why aren’t my fingers totally absolutely itching to blog?

Because I have learned (the hard way of course) that people don’t really like you when you speak your mind and they like you better when you tell them what they want to hear. Well I think I should elaborate this a bit. To “See, people like my jokes so they laugh.” I would say “Yes you are so funny” and not “They laugh at your stupidity” which is really on my mind. To “I gave the answers so well yet I failed in the viva” I say “Ya the examiner was stupid anyway” and not “What rubbish all your answers were totally off target & conceptually wrong”. To “My boyfriends is nice, right?” I would say “Ya he adores you.” (and half a dozen other gals too and he would probably ditch you if one of the others agreed to go out with him). If I actually spoke whatever was on my mind everytime I would be…lets see…rude, arrogant and may be totally friendless. Because though honesty is a trait that everybody claims to appreciate very few people actually do. So seriously am I courageous enough to be honest and speak my mind? That is why….not to blog!

But seriously I don’t want to give up on joy of writing just because I am scared to be honest…So…As much as I hate finding the golden middle I guess I will make an attempt to blog without hurting anybodys feelings….at least I promise I will honestly try not to hurt anyone’s feelings and yet be honest. And if I do…I hope all of you would forgive me. Sorry. And thanks for actually reading this one.

P.S – One more probably stupid reason to blog…It gives me an opportunity to use Barney’s line “This is so going into my blog”